Am I me?

Sometime, I just wonder whats in my life or rather whats my purpose in this life.. reality we often say the purpose in life is something that we WANT to achieve or TRYING to achieve.. but whats the purpose? I meant that I have my own purpose in life but do I even achieve it or atleast try to achieve it.. I always say "i will do it later" or worse "I know I cant achieve"..... Because I'd realise that I've highly set my goal without looking at my capability.. and it been a huge ignorant... I felt nothing or useless.. I always been wanting to do this, to do that and once I can't.. I will straightly give up.. and today I have learnt the lesson..
So what Im going to do is to change this lifestyle till the end of this year 2012.. I'll start off with small changes, slightly like start to pay attention to things.. get a book to read.. and slowly change myself..InshaAllah..

Oh yeaahh.. my previous post I did blog about to start gear up on my Quran.. Alhumdulillah.. there is one lil teacher that will be teaching me starting this coming Tuesday.. I am so happy Thank to Allah.. He is the one that hears everything!

A little update on my diet, I have becoming stricter to myself about my diet.. not to eat after 7pm and also it been like 1 week plus, I didnt touch on rich.. woohoo.. hoping this will last long InshaAllah..

And always think yourself that you are useful and worth for everything.. you owned this.. its your life and no one cares even if they talked bad about you.. i mean, that you should not take every bad thoughts that others have on you.. just think that life is worth when you make it worth.. stop hurting yourself.. but its okay to tears it up..
hehehe :)

love from me ~